Lately,
I’ve notice myself posting a lot of daily stories here…
Is a kind of habit that I will visit my own blog everyday...
A habit that I will think what to post everyday…
I asked myself why then…
Till I found out it today…
I laughed over myself…
I’m lonely…
Why say so?
As I said on my previous post,
I prefer quiet and peaceful,
But at the same time,
I felt lonely too…
There are lots of people I can share,
There are lots of places I can go …
But sharing with people isn’t what I really wish for
As privacy is what I needed…
Places to go,
Yet I’m scared of crowded …
Till now,
I’m still scared to saw him or anyone I know,
At any places …
From Klang to KL,
From KL to cheras or Ampang…
Or anywhere everywhere…
Sometimes I let myself to go out with friends,
To hang around and meet new people,
But I know I’m still self-protective,
I can’t wholly let go yet...
I kept quiet most of the time,
I said nothing but sat there staring blankly,
I don’t know why I becoming like this…
Since when?
I wanted to be those who can keep laughing and fool around,
Yet I found out there is still a little shy lady hide inside me..
A lady who hides in the dark,
Who stands more than a pure one…
How to escape...?
day to day,
i learned to moved on like how he said...
"i moved on, but why not you?"
i wish i could too,
but as deep as i fell,
i trying hard to climb up without a single things supporting me...
and it is really awful ...
im trying still...
as how much i know he happy now...
as how much i wish i could stand up too .....
Indeed, here is the most safe place for me to own myself..
Which I don’t let much people to read what my world is…
I could let my world twist and turn here,
i could write something i dream i love,
just like it happens here...
it might sounds insane,
yet this is the only place i can share...
thou...It doesn’t safe as I thought..
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