3 times i cried for today..
one in the morning when i wake up,
2nd the time i taking bath,
3rd when i listen "Already Gone" ..

wake up in the early morning,
my tears on my cheeks,
realized i dreamt of him again..
which I dreamt of him that we having a great time together again,
yet...
it just a dream...

reached home with real exhausted feeling...
had a short nap and went to bath,
bring my mini USB player in the toilet,
listen to "nobody" this song,
cried again..
let the water hit my face,
when i cant figure out,
which is tears and which is shower..
let myself cry while shower ....

sis went back,
open her facebook,
while i stand beside,
she reading her fb fren's shoutout,
suddenly she said
"eh,he mentioned u wo.."
i looked at it,
my heart pain..
its him,
but i know my sis were jk,
he ain't wrtting about me in his shoutout..
i know that is a quotes or some kind of poem..
which pretty sure it aint about me..
cos im no longer exist in his profile,
even his life...
and heart....
pretty sad huh?

went out supper with family,
followed sister went to bank,
were real enjoyed in the car singing the song,
suddenly FM played "Already gone" by Kelly Clarkson,
im stunned and started to sing,
i sing hardly,
slowly i turn my voice softly,
and i start sniffing and singing..
yes,
i cried...
my sis aint realized that..
i turn my face to the mirror,
looked outside,
let my tears drop...

yes,
today were about him again...
sadly,
the worst feeling aint being lonely and cry,
is forgotten by someone you couldn't forget and you cant stop crying..
thats the heart break 1...

writting all these,
aint to get sympathy,
with all these,
there is loves i wanted to tell,
yet i couldn't shout...
all the post i posted,
i dont even know how much is about him..
and how many times i cried...
its been 4 months without him,
time passes fast...

with this post,
i hope he aint reading..
yes,
he won't read this ...
he won't realize..
at least,
i feel safe enough to love him here ...

Yes,
i admit,
my heart pain for the whole day ...
till i write this last sentences,
i touched my face,
its wet .....