Its been M.I.A for one week plus, I should be updating my post about my weekend, but too bad im in office now and I cant upload the pics that captured on weekend. So this is my random post for what happened yesterday.

Wednesday (210410):
As for Wednesday, seriously, tiring.. ever since back from the trip, im getting tired day to day, worst even worst when I din sleep much on Monday and Tuesday night. Baby called me up on Tuesday asked me whether wanted to go for Connaught night market, whats pop out my mind were drew; the place he drove me all the way from klang to KL cos he know I wanted to go night market badly. At first I rejected babe cause I’m fear.

Worked as usual and chat at forum with Bob, Unca and Nini till I finished my work and went back home. Reached home the first thing I get is dad with black face, nagged about the breakfast that he bought nobody want to eat, wasted he buy. I was like, “what the heck! I got nothing to deal with that, why nag me, as if I do wrong!?” I came back with a relaxing and tiring mood, and what I get what that. I pissed and mum asked me to take a rest since she saw im tearing caused I complaint Im really tired. I went room without dinner and bath, straight lay on bed and sleep for 1 hour, till when I wake up, online and saw all the comment that friends post, it still bright up my mood. Take a bath till babe called up again to ask me go, without doubt I promised “what on my mind, I should give a try isn’t it?” … till both David came over and fetch me, went to babe and Shun house. In the car we kept laughed and fool around, Shun laughed over me cause how I laugh, am I really laugh that silly I was wondering, sounds silly? LOL. Reached Connaught at 10 something, I told myself, finally I step in. I smiled and try not to think about him, yet that’s impossible.

Walked along the street, I can’t stop looking … not stall but people… was worried I might saw him, holding her… or even his sister I met… I just can’t stop… remember that he used to hold my hand on the night market, “I din hold ur hand for 2 mins, u din feel anything 1?, “ I know even if I dun hold back, you still hold my hand at the end…” , “aww, how u know?” “ =)” then he hugged and hold me… even there is a lot people, he din let go, hugged me from behind, make sure im not lost, make sure he din let go me…
Its half year… the last I went night market at Cheras.. but this time without him, and I’m finally dare myself to walk it again… I consider that im brave enough… cos I never thought I will be going there again after broken up with him.

Walked from beginning till the end of the street night market, we turned back again, babe wanted to buy CD, yet I bought a USB light for my laptop, looks cool tho… recently keep finding those accessories for my lappie… crazy I guess, started to sayang my lappie, wonder its too late ? Babe were searching CD to buy on the next stall, I asked the seller about “Fang Da Tong” CD, of all the sudden feel like buying his CD and listen.. I wonder did I change my taste for music eh? Tired of listen to club songs same goes babe as well; too bad the seller said its finished. From all the beginning and the end of the street night market, we non stop eating… there is one moment I bought extremely spicy Taiwan sausage, wanted to trick David Lim; Shun paid for that then I give it to David Lim, I told him its Honey flavor, he believed and eat; his face then changed, I can’t stop laughing after that… David Tan helped him to finish it, he feel nothing.. but David Lim said his lips started to bengkak and looks like “Shu Qi” , Shun and babe said I tricky and naughty caused make David Lim suffered. I then bought Ice Cream for David Lim, he said even worst, the tongue and lips are numb.. make me cant stop laughing … ppl keep looked at me, like im insane. Till we get back to our car, we all are tired and fulled, babe met Johnson and they said wanted to go lookout point, yet we all tired, so cancelled the plan.

From all the way to and back from night market, all of us keep laughing... thats what i feel relax at the end... it somehow wash away my tension i had for day... i realized... "just laugh!! laugh as big as how happy!! you'll definately feel better at the end of the day although the stress just harm u badly...."

I reached home and lay on bed, being real glad cos I finally made it. Finally I could really dare myself to go there again, there were time the street he drove me and walked together, and im fear … but all of, I walked it again, alone but I finally made it, babe know cos I told her, she asked me to be tough, cos im with them … after feeling im success, Im tearing… It’s a past isn’t it? Its already a memories isn’t it? Time passes… its already past… lol, how could that be I asked myself.. but… that is how it already became; I fall asleep…..in the dream, I saw him…. I saw him again….. yet he with her in my dream…. I met him again … lol…. waking up, there are tears on my face again.... but i smiled, i met him again ... tho in the dream~

Keep moving on, Lilian…. Keep moving =) There how impossible we going to be together and fall in love with me, the only way just moving on, one day till you can totally let go him, when was it going to be? we dont know... but knowing he is happy now, definately what worth then... the thing u wished, isnt just knowing he is happy? Then thats how glad you are.. thats how u loved him... thats what attracted you about him... loves....

Thursday:
Aww~ its Thursday and raining in the morning, yikes! Soooo sleepy~~ luckily supervisor not around, can snake awhile… its Thursday now, what else I wanted to say? SCARY!!! What the heck wei, why that fast?! Planning up for this Saturday indeed, Shun asked whether am I going club this Saturday with em, my goshh, they are really full attendances to go club … I wonder did they that hardworking if they go work? LOL. However, lets see whats going to fall on me this weekend then…