as far in this stage,
its new and fresh,
im still tryna to overcome it ..
somehow,
i told myself not to cry .....
yet .........................

don't wanna think,
don't wanna messed up,
don't wanna be baby...

let me be a bitch .......
yes,let me be ....
now ...

i don't know whether will it be different or worst,
but i got what in my mind now,
which gonna be much more than before who i am ...
i seek no mercy,
i gonna forget about him,
for sure ....
yes i will ......

i slap myself when i think of him,
i'll be much more cruel to myself,
just to forget about him,
it would be real difficult and pain,
as long i can forget the love from me to him,
it worth enough ...
cos once the true love comes,
to make it gone,
have to use more to make it eternally gone ...
and i know that is fuking true ...

let me be a bitch,
im happy about it ...
party,player,i shud enjoy and give up on star that not belongs to me ...

i learned the lessons of our love story,
just on the moment,
we laughed we cried,
we never meant to be one piece,
he heartless to me,
and no matter what i do,
once it gone,
it would never back ...
and times reached,
both of us shud moved on,
he moved on and found someone he loved of cos,
i moved on to be someone who i never thought i could be ..
Will i be happy?
Well,
time tells....

yes,
lilian just fell especially in relationship,
all the guys she loved before,
they never have a happy ending,
who cares the faults,
jz the matter of fate ...
when she found she loved someone the most,
still fated that way...
now she finally learned,
love him just like i love myself...

as for him,
i always wish him could be happy,
as far he told me on the comment,
i learned what he told...
and i realized when im thnking of him,
he already moved on,
which is hurtful enough,
afterall,
when i know he smiled and gt his happiness,
i know i had enough...
to Drew,
may ur future be blessed ...
thanks for love you gave me,
thanks for making part of my life being different once,
im happy it happened,
still im happy for you too as she is the one who you attracted to her true personality..
Take care =)

for the info,
im changing new blog ...
for more details....
till i deleted this blog =)

addiioos~

p/s: to him, his girl is as what i thought of,she is attractive enough.. he gonna be real happy afterall.... im glad ....