finally i done my last paper in jz now morning..
disappointed with the paper..
cos the thong i read ain't come out..
some did,but some it ain't the thong i studied..
i done my best in writing as much as i could,
hoping to get marks from that..
but i guess i can't even make it pass..
have to resit again i guess..
feeling so emo even after i done my paper..
why i dun hv the excitement of finish my exam..
am so happy with sem break..
no more sem break for me..
dats why im emo?
jz hardly to think things properly
and feel so emo this few days..
i can't share with him ..
cos he nvr noe how i feel..
he even think im stubborn
well,did he ever really care n think about me?
even if he does,
he might understand how i feel..
well,he won't,nobody will..
cos im me,i oni understand how i feel..
for sometimes,i dun even noe whats wrong...
im back to the previous lilian who keep emo for nth..
yet i couldn't go back to the previous moment..
i should just spend my time to re-ocnsider,
did i make the right choice?
cos something happened,
makes me think of i shouldn't decide without thinking properly..
i will jz regret if i choose the wrong thong..
am still young
i want explore more..
i don't want to be tie up..
i need freedom to do whatever i like,
dunwan anybody to tell me what i should do..
cos what i do,is myself..
1 more month,
im leaving here..
i have to think properly..
1 last thing,
i rmb i promised someone said i wont emo..
when i can't make things right,
i will keep emo till i awake..
im sorry i disappointed u..
all i can do
is to find the right answer,
before its too late..
I will always keep the promise in my mind and my heart..
In the meant time,
i have to find out whats wrong,
As u said,
promises are lifetime,
i made the promise,i have to fulfill it..
I can't hope anyone would understand me anymore..
Just i need more time to think about..
Whats wrong with myself?
U guys might think im giving myself pressure,
but u guys really don't know whats really wrong with the real me..
I wanted to find back myself.