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aches and came true.....

before i start to blog about the night i enjoyed in the club on ytd..
just before few mins ago,
something became reality...
about what i post last post,
"what if he have a new girl?"
yes,it came true...
he got a new girl now..

whats my reaction?
of cos....
heart broken...

i guess this is it...
the new stage again...
goshhh...
i might as well just crash a car den forgot everything bout him..

how fuking pain now my heart is...
what i guess is really became a reality ..
i bet the girl is attractive enough to let him be with her...

darn!
im having a real aches over my heart now...
cant continue anymore....
10 comments:

hey gurl..dont think it that way..i understands how tough and wat u're going thru...trust me...becuz i've been there...for the same guy,twice...so dun think of silly things like having a car accident okay? live ur life to the fullest for him if this way will make u feel better =)

and i bet,u had know him long enough to understand him that he's not that kind who like attractive gurls...he's attracted to the gurl's personality =) and from your pic,i can see that you're pretty too =) might be better than the gurl...get ur self confidence back...and there's where a person looked attractive the most...

-the evil murderer-


hey the evil murderer,

from what you replied,i guess u might be someone who knew about him ... or maybe not...

well, as much as the pain,it seriously makes me feel so wanted to die just like that,but it aint worth and fact shown,he wont love me anymore,so about what i said, is just an expression of how pain am I ..

Thru this "world",i might seems pretty but i aint,not the confidence matters,is only about who im being myself.

As what he replied, i realized now,i still feel im in the comfort zone,and of cos,i wanted to move on ...

but the most important,im glad he tell,and he moved on.. and its enough ..

And for the story of urs,of cos i wanted to know,but thru what u said,i guess u learned and i hope i can be the same way..

still,thanks for dropping by and the concerns.. No matter who are u,someone who knew him or maybe not,still thanks to you ...


dear lilian,somehow,i felt that i'm connected to you...from your post,i saw who i am in the past...dying to lost the memories we once had...

my story was a very depressed ones...yes,i moved on and i'm still learning how to protect myself...but somehow,i'm not good in that...it takes time,my dear...

you might wana step out of ur comfort zone one day..and realized that he wasnt the only one...yes,i do understand..for the moment right now,he is...and you wana give ur blessings to him and his gurl,even if it hurts yourself...at this very moment,all his happiness is your happiness...am i right?

oh...btw...i do not know him =) really hoped that you'll step out 1 day when you're ready...


Hey Evil murderer..

Then i guess im into the wrong person ... sorry for that...

Someday i might be just like you,seeing other passing the life i used to gone thru,but as far as for now... i just stucked and wanted to move on but i just tried all sort of ways,but it just difficult enough.. and thats the reason,i let myself be in this so called comfort zone..

yes,it is the happiness i hope and i could have if he found a better one rather than me,when i realized he cant anymore,thats what i could hope for..

I will step out of it,just the matter of time ... and its new still,something new and difficult to work on, im tired but im pushing myself,but it seriously... goshh,how pain is that,nothing can describe..

I hope too my dear,i hope i could be the lilian who smile like a silly one too,but when will it be? Im asking myself,cos i lost, i lost myself .. I feel horrible,and scared.. lol,i never thought i could be a girl like this ... i got much more pain which invisible and dare not to speak...

thanks to you still ...


my dear,it will come to u too...just tat it takes time..dont worry...you'll be there..i was the same too...staying in the comfort zone =) so i totally understands you

wateva it is...dont force yourself..just let it flow ok? it's harder when you force yourself =)

btw,what makes you thinks that i know him?


from my sense i guess,no matter do u know him or what,doesnt matter now ...

but u know what,i jz found out he is really happy now .. and i know my tears are worth for today ...

He is really happy comparing when he with me..

today went to somewhere we used to went too,its really hard for me to not think about him,almost cry out but i keep hold on ...

till when i back i saw smth,he smiled ... im glad now...

doesnt matter now,as im moving on,i smiled when i saw he smiled too .. its enough for me ... my dear,its enough ...


you said you're happy when he's happy...have you ever thought that he might felt the same too? seeing you moving on...get your happiness and stuffs like tat...anyway,good luck my dear...and dont do anything that you'll regret okay?? =)


he said,seeing i smiled he feel better,but i can't .. so i might as well just act,at least i know he happy.. did he will feel the same way?i dont think so.. he got his love one.. im happy or not,i dont think he care.. well,i can say,acting are part of my ability,act as im happy i guess thats it ... =)

goshh,how difficult is that you know?haha,i wont hurt myself,but from day to day,i just feel im getting weak n weaker.. is this what love suppose to be? I always said i grow,but i never did...

i keep on force myself,and that is even worst.. im gonna insane.. started to insane ..lol..

btw,im curious about you.. something i can feel on you.. i dont know why... lol..


dont think that way...he will be happy too if you moved on...he wouldnt wana see you that way...trust me =)

lolz...what's so curious bout me? i'm just another net surfer...and your blog interests me bcuz i didnt know i get to met some1 doing the same thing as i did =)


just felt something connected as u said,i feels like i know u but too bad,dont even get to know ur name,but u know most of my tings thru my blog,lol .. something familiar .. but i keep it for my own to find out ... =)

i woulda hope he be happy more than i am... as long he happy,as i said,enough ... doesn't matter now,as far my heart still stays him,then thats what i comfort about .. doesnt matter if his heart stays other .. i dont know whether u knew mandarin or not,but this is one sentences my fren post,and i found out it is about what i felt.. "我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你 明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地 我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你 总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己 以为自己不再去想你 保持不被刺痛的距离 就算早已忘了我自己 却还想要知道你的消息"


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